ohmyfriggingosh

ever since that event back in the day, i haven't forgotten it since. the past 6 months that it's happened have been ok, but i've been somewhat living in my own silent hell. the more i try hiding it, the easier it's gotten. til things got better between us and once everything started up again, i realized how much i missed you, but i also realized how much i hated you. i never thought i'd ever be in a more complicated situation. what happened to us? things were so good before any of that happened. i used to think you were a good person. back in the day. six months later i hear of some of your douchbag moves and some things that've happened. i've read the after shock people face and i feel them. chus i've been through that too. twice. i've asked people for advice and it's helped a lot. the coping process isn't short. and your actions cause long-term suffering. thanks a lot. for nothing.